clockworkcalliope:

Pony doodle commission! Marey Flower Child for tsunderidanhampora c:

I’m offering these (and other animals) for 4-5 USD to help my best friend!

look how adorbs this is! You can buy one for yourself, and help out someone with a chronic, very painful illness! EVERYONE WINS

clockworkcalliope:

clockworkcalliope:

Hi, guys. Name’s Marly. My best friend in the world, the whole wide world, is in a bit of a pickle, and unfortunately, he can’t/won’t do anything for himself.

He’s unwell. I don’t know precisely how unwell because, again, his treatment of choice is usually to ignore his issues. He doesn’t talk about it because he doesn’t want to think about it.

Here’s what I do know, though. He’s transmale. He has no money and his mother doesn’t really take care of him; rather, he seems to be the parent. He has endometriosis which causes him pain, though to what extent I don’t know. He has a few rather severe emotional and mental issues that I don’t feel I am at liberty to disclose to you. His health has been failing for weeks now. I don’t know what’s causing it, though I’m sure stress can’t help. And he’ll continue to not do anything about it.

He tried to kill himself tonight AS I WAS TYPING THIS to escape the pain. He tried to overdose on prescription meds he’s allergic to. He NEEDS HELP. I told him I would do this if he wouldn’t, and I am. He needs to see a doctor. He needs to find out what’s wrong with him and GET IT TREATED. I won’t just sit by and watch the one person in this world I love the most fall apart. It scares me. It really does. I lost my dad two years ago, and I’ll be damned if I let my best friend join him.

I work part-time at McDonald’s…I make maybe 50 a week lately, my hours are so bad. He’s unemployed. He needs money. He needs to see a doctor, but he’s told me he refuses to beg. So I’m doing it for him. If you could please donate even a little…I have no idea how much he needs. I don’t, and I wish I did. Any amount can help him. One day we’re going to be roommates…it’s the one thing in life I look forward to the most. That can’t happen if he’s dead. I hate to even think about it, but it came close tonight.

If you don’t want to donate, I’m gonna take this moment instead to plug the fact that he offers commissions. I don’t wanna flood him with requests so I won’t link you directly, but wouldn’t you love a piece of this sweet action in addition to knowing you might help save someone’s life?

(He does lovely humans too!)

I know you would! I do messy cute pony doodles for 4 a pop as well:

Small and quick, yours will look better! (That’s G3 Dream Blue, by the way. I’ll do other animals as well!)

And if you’re not interested in commissioning or donating, could you at least spread the word? I would really appreciate it. Reblog it, all of you, please. I almost lost my best friend tonight and I never want to be this close again.

TO DONATE: Here’s a nifty donation link that you can use without a Paypal account!

If you DO have a Paypal account, I ask that you send a gift to suricatecheese@gmail.com instead of using the donate link to avoid Paypal’s ridiculous transaction fees!

Or, you can contact me in my ask box (or submissions if you’re worried about the ask being eaten by Tumbeasts) if you can’t donate or gift via Paypal! If you want to commission either of us, please ask me!

Thank you so much for your time!

For the night crowd and also at my friend’s request!

Reblogging for endo solidarity! Dudes can get endo too! It sucks!

Would that we lived in a world where healthcare were accessible enough that no one would EVER be driven to the point of trying to kill themselves to escape the pain of chronic illness. Until then, help an endo-brother out, if y’all can.

So it’s like this: when you have a chronic illness, a lot of the condescending bullshit you get boils down to two things:

1. people thinking you’re weak, and

2. people thinking it’s all in your head and/or you’re just making too big a deal out of your symptoms/everything in general if you ask for any help/accommodation.

And ESPECIALLY for anyone who’s a lady or read as a lady, there’s a heavy element of misogyny there. Like, did you know that VASTLY more women die of heart disease than men? Do you know why that is? It’s because when women go to their doctors complaining of chest pains, said doctors are FAR more likely to dismiss their symptoms as being stress-related than they’d be if a man was telling them the same shit. And so women die. Because when you’re understood - accurately or not - to be a woman, every single interaction you have with a healthcare professional is laced with the tacit assumption that your pain, fatigue, etc, are all just in your inferior lady-head.

This isn’t individual healthcare professionals being dicks. “Bitches are crazy” is a HEAVILY institutionalized attitude in medicine, and it’s roots go back to basically the CREATION of contemporary “western” medicine.

SO here’s what I’ve found as an ACTUALLY crazy bitch with a chronic illness trying navigate the healthcare system on various levels:

1. Basically every condescending, dubious/skeptical, etc response I get about my endo boil down to, “I WANT to tell you that it’s all in your head and treat you with all the disrespect and dismissal that I’d treat a crazy person with, but I have all this medical info here that tells me otherwise so I can’t just come right out and SAY what I believe here.”

2. BUT when I’m dealing with healthcare professionals in the context of my mental illnesses, that layer of pretend civility just… goes away. There’s no veiled invalidation of my symptoms, no dancing around the assumption that I’m making shit up for attention or to get out of assignment deadlines, because the invalidation of my symptoms and the assumption that I’m making shit up aren’t veiled or danced around, they’re stated outright.

3. I talked to the doctor running the clinical trial I was in about this, actually - he’s still a doctor I see when I can’t get in with my regular doctor, because I like him - and here’s what he said: “It’s true, for many doctors there is this confusion. Because depression, for example, there’s no test you can take for depression like you can take for diabetes. Any test you take for diabetes gives you an objectively positive or negative response. But we general practitioners can’t do such a test for depression. Some places they can give you an MRI and map your brain, but that’s not what we’re doing.”

4. So, most doctors see mental illness as being in an ENTIRELY different class from “physical” illness: “physical” illness is objective, because you can easily and accurately (for given values of “easily” and “accurately”, of course) test for it. But “mental” illness is entirely subjective, and they have no “real” way of easily & accurately testing for it that they don’t trust patients to not manipulate.

5. So they subject patients who present with mental illnesses to all sorts of shit that they don’t DIRECTLY subject patients with chronic physical illnesses to - particularly if those patients with chronic illnesses are white, male, etc - BUT that doesn’t mean that the ATTITUDES that inform the treatment of people with “mental” illnesses and people with “physical” illnesses are not fundamentally the same.

IN CASE YOU HAVEN’T FIGURED YET, I find the whole “mental illness” vs. “physical illness” to be totally bogus and insulting, as a mentally & physically ill person. The brain is an organ. The idea that mental illness is some kind of subjective affliction of the soul and not a concrete thing that takes place WITHIN THE BODY feels insulting on  a whole new level to me (and probs to anyone who’s ever experienced regular panic attacks, too). My pain levels spike when I’m in a depressive episode FOR A REASON. Panic attacks have as profound an impact on my physical abilities as pain spikes. And I’ve written a bunch of academic stuff about how Freud & the construction of “transference”-as-medical-phenomenon are to blame for the suffering and deaths of MANY women (and people read as women), but this is tumblr so I’ll condense it: This shit KILLS PEOPLE, okay. 

The people yelling at me at Concordia Health Services are part of a historical and ongoing tradition that directly and indirectly causes people trying to navigate the healthcare system to suffer unnecessarily and to DIE. And it fucking NEEDS to change. It’s not okay. It’s traumatic and horrible and shitty and terrifying and not okay at all.

senselessviolinist:

The symptoms of endomeowtriosis?

OH MY GOD ahahahahahahahahahaha

endomeowtriosis

ENDOMEOWTRIOSIS

J how is it even possible for you to know me so well.

it’s possible i’m taking this “omg endo can’t be that serious, sashi must be scamming” thing entirely too personally.

FUCK YOU GUYS YOU DON’T KNOW MY LIFE

*casual sobbing*

megachiropteran:

chronicillnesscat:

Kay so I got loads of anons about the Sashi donation tumblr and all I have to say is:

-I do not know anything about Endometriosis so I wouldn’t know if it was a scam or not.

-Today was the first time I heard about that blog so I didn’t know about any pre-existing issues.

So here’s your beware.

This is so fucked up, guys. I’m about to unfollow this autoimmune blog because you guys CONSTANTLY post fucked up shit. Again — I’m feeling alienated by a group I supposedly belong to, YAY.

WHAT DO PEOPLE CONSTANTLY TELL US? That we don’t look sick.

What are you doing here? TELLING SOMEONE THEY DON’T FIT THE BILL.

Fuccckkk thiiiisss. We are better than this — we KNOW how the struggle is to be taken seriously. About how it is SO, SO easy to DIE from a disease that should not kill you because of the lack of access to healthcare.

And look — if you’re sketched out about it, don’t donate. But flooding an inbox to tell others not to, and then circulating this around is just bullshit.

I HATE EVERYTHING.

Wow what the FUCK

b/t this and their condescending-as-fuck response to you, FUCK chronicillnesscat.

okay I’m prolly going to regret this but allow me to clarify some things for these ignorant-ass anons:

1. Surgery is the most common way endo is diagnosed but cases as advanced as Sashi’s can be easily diagnosed with a simple ultrasound (adhesions, lesions, etc that are large enough will show up on an ultrasound). The fact that Sashi hasn’t had diagnostic surgery does not mean that she doesn’t have a viable diagnosis.

2. “endo isn’t fatal, it’s the potential side effects that can be fatal” - look this is kind of like saying “being shot isn’t that serious, it’s the blood loss and trauma caused by being shot that’s fatal!” Of course endo isn’t always - or even usually - fatal, and it shouldn’t be fatal EVER, THAT’S THE FUCKING POINT. But guys. Common sense here. Side effects of endo include: internal bleeding, inability to properly digest/process food, etc, and yes, sepsis, severe malnutrition, etc ARE dangers in the critical/advanced stage! No, those side effects are not uniform in their severity/presentation/etc from case to case. But saying that those are “just side effects” and therefor endo isn’t that serious is just… dense.

3. Anyone prefacing “oh this is totally impossible” with “I’m not a medical professional but” NEEDS TO STOP

I’m not saying don’t be skeptical, if you are skeptical that’s totally fine, I’ve seen too many “oh i’m dying of cancer/TB/sad puppy syndrome, please send money and clex mpreg fanfic” scams in my day to really be pissy about people being skeptical. BUT for fuck’s sake don’t fall back on spreading misinformation about an already misunderstood disease, and on bullshit that chronically ill people face all the damn time anyway (oh it can’t really be that bad/prove it to me right now by answering these inappropriately invasive questions/my cousin had that once and it turned out she just needed to stop eating soy/etc etc etc). I mean just. BE SKEPTICAL. But think for two seconds.

Actually my grandmother on my father’s side did die of ovarian cancer. Yikes! Thanks for the advice, anon.

I do know that endo has also been linked to breast and ovarian cancer, although I can’t recall the specifics of that rn. But yeah, it’s a good idea for folks with endo diagnoses to get checked out for ovarian cancer. Very good idea.

re the diagram in yr last: my cousin also has it in her eye and knee. :(

yeah that shit can get anywhere, really.

Like glitter.

THE MORE YOU KNOW

yourdarlinglittlesammy:

I’m about to head to bed [I’m still so wired and still getting so many messages, but it’s 5:30am], but I wanted to make one last post first.

There’s a couple of people here on tumblr who are skeptical and seem rather angry about it, and it’s fine. Man, you should be skeptical. A total stranger…

Yeah, I gotta say, as someone with endo and a family history of endo, I found NOTHING inconsistent about this situation/story/description of symptoms at all.

The thing about endo is that it fucks your shit up in ways that are often unpredictable, b/c once your endometrial tissue decides it wants to be, uh, free of the confines of your uterus, where they end up and how fast it progresses, etc, is kind of up to how lucky or unlucky you are. Here is a helpful wikipedia graphic showing the places in one’s body where endometriosis can manifest with adhesions, lesions, and tumors.

There’s also a real lack of understanding/knowledge of endo, even within medical communities - last year I wrote a paper on this, actually, and on the ways in which Freudian ideas of transference and the misogynistic history of contemporary Western medicine are defining factors in how medical institutions often fail to provide adequate and timely care for patients with endo. The fact is that any kind of health concern that revolves around the uterus is seen primarily by most medical institutions, doctors, etc as being primarily a reproductive concern, and therefor not critical. If you think that the fact that there are people who spend YEARS of their lives slowly bleeding out into their intestines and having their pain and other symptoms dismissed by doctors is not rooted in a misogynistic devaluing of the bodies and experiences of people who are coded as women, I have a bridge to sell you.

(Like, if I may vent for a moment: I’ve actually had doctors tell me, “well, you’re still fertile, so it’s no big deal” AND “well you know, if you have a child, that’s been proven to reduce symptoms!” Allow me to reiterate that endometriosis causes chronic internal bleeding. But if you have a uterus, your health concerns are always reduced to “baby-bearing capacity”.)

The point is that endo takes a long-ass time to diagnose and treat, in part because it’s sneaky, and it part because it’s not very well understood. Lots of people just can’t afford that kind of consistent, long-term medical observation and care, especially not for something that there’s a tendency for doctors to dismiss due to a lack of knowledge.

In conclusion, fuck the haters, anyone who actually has endo knows that this shit is fucking serious.

anedumacation:

yourdarlinglittlesammy:

It took me forever to get this video up on the internet because tumblr gave zero shits about letting it work and then youtube took it’s sweet time, so the numbers and everything I say during my hysterical sobs aren’t even close to accurate anymore.

Guys. I am overwhelmed. At this exact moment, my paypal account has over 7k in it and I am exchanging emails with KIM FREAKING RHODES about her doctor and theres a tumblr account dedicated to this and other paypal accounts are collection donations and people are doing commissions akjshdkajh I just…. I can’t stop crying. I don’t even know what to say except a pathetic thank you amongst my tears. 

Okay. I’m sure you’ve seen it already, but just so it’s attached to everything, my paypal email is chibi.coco@gmail.com if you want to help. I understand if you can’t. omg I didn’t even want to ask for money in the first place and now this is happening aksjghdgka

This fandom (and tumblr at large) has your back, gurl. 

What’s happening to you is fucking bullshit, and it amazes me that we live in a country where someone’s life can be put at risk because they cannot pay for proper medical care. So yeah, I’m donating. Cos this is bullshit. 

Hugs, you’re awesome. 

I’m donating as soon as I get this paypal shit figured out.

So much love. ENDO SOLIDARITY~

infinitymax:

rukawagf:

If everyone donates $5 to chibi.coco@gmail.com or $10…. she can have a surgery and live.

The goal is $30,000.

This is an EMERGENCY and she’ll need the money ASAP (like possibly even THIS WEEKEND ASAP)

I apologize for the spam but to me it’s important.

More information on why she needs the money is here.

If you can’t donate, please help signal boost this guys. Please help her.

so uh. I have the same illness as this girl, only I’m stage 2 and she’s, like, critical-near-death.

When I was a teenager, this happened to my mom (who also has endo - it seems to run in her family). It was terrifying as hell and thank god for the Canadian healthcare system, is all I can say.

Please signal boost this. No one should DIE from endometriosis. It sucks heartily (as chronic internal bleeding tends to!) but it is treatable IF one has access to decent healthcare.